We're moving for a while. :)
I can't wait to have Dave all to myself. He's worked 5 years at a full time job and I know, I love it, he's a hard worker, men do that sometimes but man, have I missed him during the day. Of course, we'll come back and be super responsible and pick up the slack but the next few months are just going to be golden for me.
I've got two more interviews this week, when I'm taking care of Adam and Eli. Which is great, just wish me luck and also that Eli doesn't decide to scream during those sweet ten minutes that could change the future. Fat chance, I suppose but I'm still crossing my fingers.
Diets....are hard. I see the biggest difference when I'm playing sports which actually is surprisingly helpful because when I want to sleep all day from lack of energy, I can remember how long I've wanted to be good at sports.
I only have ten full days left in Provo, if that. I'm filled with excitement and some terror. I've felt like I've stuck around here for so long but everyone knows what it's like to be "comfortable," now I am crossing a threshold and though I'm not used to it, I plan to love every second of this new adventure.
I apologize for the grammar or punctuation of this post. I let my thoughts spill, in the way that they poured out into my head and decided not to change it. Call me a purist.
Jul 31, 2013
Jul 26, 2013
Juice Fast: Day 5
I need to write this somewhere, not really to be read but because it's happening and it's quite difficult.
Let's start out as "why":
-My sister approached me and asked if I'd be willing to go vegan with her to support her hopes of losing weight. I've actually contemplated trying vegan for a while since I'm not the biggest fan of meats, I do not like eggs and I prefer a soy/almond milk. I do, however, enjoy cookies, cheese, burgers and many other foods that contain animal products so I didn't quite know what I was in for. On top of that, before I jumped into a vegan diet I thought (for some horrific reason) that I would juice fast the first 6 days. This way, I would be adding foods instead of taking away foods.
Day 1: This was the worst day in the history of juice fasts to start.
It was kim's last day in town and we go the gym together so I ended up going to cycling and power pump. Then, I didn't drink enough afterwards and we ended up going to Deer Creek from 1-7pm and I didn't plan ahead with packing juices. I watched everyone eat and my energy was so low. Usually the first day of a juice fast is the hardest but I tortured myself. Then, when we got home. My dad came through the door with 6 pizzas, that's when the tears began to flow and honestly, they didn't stop the rest of the night.
"Do you think that you are possibly crying partly because you haven't eaten all day?"-Dave
"Why on earth did you let Lizi Juice fast when she's hypoglycemic?"-Linda (btw, she self-diagnosed me with hypoglycemia, that is not confirmed)
Day 2: Emotions were still not very stable, but I survived.
This day I noticed how food is EVERYWHERE. Everyone talks about food, there are billboards, food is in the front of the store/movie theater/commercials. They are brainwashing us, want to know why? Absolutely everything looked good, stuff I've never wanted to eat in my life looked pretty good. I met someone for lunch at Jamba Juice, I hope I seemed myself. In the evening, I pinned all of the vegan recipes on pinterest that I could find. I pretended I was eating each dish as I went and it got me more excited about eating ANY food, even if it's vegan.
Day 3: Energy was low, so I decided to run in a race? I'm not very good at thinking.
I wasn't as hungry this day but I didn't have any energy at all. Until the evening when I had pure rage, but luckily I've found that cleaning is a good rage outlet for me so my house got pretty clean in the meantime. I did however go to a grocery store, which wasn't the best idea and recognized what I craved the most is shrimp and sugar wafers.
Day 4: Better.
I had an interview this morning, that could've went better. I also met with a wedding client at a restaurant but was surprisingly not longing to eat the food. We went to Trader Joe's which really brought me a lot of hope about next week. Healthy things look a lot more appealing and I have full meal plans that I'm excited to get cooking. I did watch Dave eat Doritos which I wanted a little bit but refrained, he also got M&Ms and a soda when we went to a movie. I go to movies now, not because I like to watch movies but because I know that the evenings are rough and I need a distraction.
Day 5: I dream about food now...and also those dreams of when you're in a crowded room naked?
I have three interviews today, which I hope my lack of eating will not make me ridiculously awkward because I'd love to work for these companies in the fall. I worry about the evening because I really want to see people and have a slightly more eventful evening. Wish me luck.
Let's start out as "why":
-My sister approached me and asked if I'd be willing to go vegan with her to support her hopes of losing weight. I've actually contemplated trying vegan for a while since I'm not the biggest fan of meats, I do not like eggs and I prefer a soy/almond milk. I do, however, enjoy cookies, cheese, burgers and many other foods that contain animal products so I didn't quite know what I was in for. On top of that, before I jumped into a vegan diet I thought (for some horrific reason) that I would juice fast the first 6 days. This way, I would be adding foods instead of taking away foods.
Day 1: This was the worst day in the history of juice fasts to start.
It was kim's last day in town and we go the gym together so I ended up going to cycling and power pump. Then, I didn't drink enough afterwards and we ended up going to Deer Creek from 1-7pm and I didn't plan ahead with packing juices. I watched everyone eat and my energy was so low. Usually the first day of a juice fast is the hardest but I tortured myself. Then, when we got home. My dad came through the door with 6 pizzas, that's when the tears began to flow and honestly, they didn't stop the rest of the night.
"Do you think that you are possibly crying partly because you haven't eaten all day?"-Dave
"Why on earth did you let Lizi Juice fast when she's hypoglycemic?"-Linda (btw, she self-diagnosed me with hypoglycemia, that is not confirmed)
Day 2: Emotions were still not very stable, but I survived.
This day I noticed how food is EVERYWHERE. Everyone talks about food, there are billboards, food is in the front of the store/movie theater/commercials. They are brainwashing us, want to know why? Absolutely everything looked good, stuff I've never wanted to eat in my life looked pretty good. I met someone for lunch at Jamba Juice, I hope I seemed myself. In the evening, I pinned all of the vegan recipes on pinterest that I could find. I pretended I was eating each dish as I went and it got me more excited about eating ANY food, even if it's vegan.
Day 3: Energy was low, so I decided to run in a race? I'm not very good at thinking.
I wasn't as hungry this day but I didn't have any energy at all. Until the evening when I had pure rage, but luckily I've found that cleaning is a good rage outlet for me so my house got pretty clean in the meantime. I did however go to a grocery store, which wasn't the best idea and recognized what I craved the most is shrimp and sugar wafers.
Day 4: Better.
I had an interview this morning, that could've went better. I also met with a wedding client at a restaurant but was surprisingly not longing to eat the food. We went to Trader Joe's which really brought me a lot of hope about next week. Healthy things look a lot more appealing and I have full meal plans that I'm excited to get cooking. I did watch Dave eat Doritos which I wanted a little bit but refrained, he also got M&Ms and a soda when we went to a movie. I go to movies now, not because I like to watch movies but because I know that the evenings are rough and I need a distraction.
Day 5: I dream about food now...and also those dreams of when you're in a crowded room naked?
I have three interviews today, which I hope my lack of eating will not make me ridiculously awkward because I'd love to work for these companies in the fall. I worry about the evening because I really want to see people and have a slightly more eventful evening. Wish me luck.
I haven't decided if tomorrow or Sunday will be my last day but hopefully I'm not doing these crazy things for nothing. I usually don't do diets but I'd love some more confidence for this fall, usually food determines my emotion meter and I'm hoping that clean eating will help that.
Jul 23, 2013
Jul 19, 2013
Jul 16, 2013
Billionaires
At the party of all parties we played a game that if all expenses paid, what would we get each other for our birthdays? Here are our presents:
Presents for DAVE:
- A full body wax-from Linda
- A labradoodle-from Himself
- A yellow lab, a home by the lake, a wood watch, all of the shoes he could even think of wanting to buy and a european cruise-from me
- Tickets to E3-from Dan Lewis
- I'd pay his parking ticket so he can go to Wisconsin-from Katie
- A lake-from Papa
- A boy- from Saide (age 3)
- A motorcycle with built in guns-from Seth (age 10)
- Apple-from Buddy (age 13)
- A football shirt-from Eden (age 8)
- A waterballoon on his face-from Mary (age 10)
- I'd drop all of my money on him in ones, as a prank-from Kim
- A bow-from Anna (age 8)
- The Nike franchise and all the equipment and toys-from Mama E
Presents for LIZI:
- A baby bedroom set-from Linda
- A ranch with horses-from Dave
- An Oscar winning film starring Dan Lewis- from Dan
- A horse camp to run-from Katie
- A horse farm-from Papa
- A birdie-from Sadie (age 3)
- A steeler's shirt-from Andrew (age 8)
- A bomb-from Seth (age 10)
- Microsoft-from Buddy (age 13)
- An art set-from Eden (age 8)
- A billiondollar camera-from Mary (age 10)
- A horse farm and studio-from Kim
- A head band-from Anna (age 8)
- I'd buy her Sundance, all of it- from Mama E
Presents for our UNBORN CHILD:
(no this is not an announcement)
- A baby bjorn with a camera attachment-from Linda
- A labradoodle-from Dave
- A running stroller-from Lizi
- The gift of my name-from Dan
- A night-nanny-from Katie
- A house-from Papa
- A phone-from Sadie (age 3)
- A toy-from Andrew (age 8)
- A mini gun-from Seth (age10)
- Mars-from Buddy (age 13)
- Baby Clothes-from Eden (age 8)
- A mini car-from Mary (age 10)
- Tickets to visit their favorite Aunt Kim-from Kim
- A dress-from Anna
- An entourage of family and friends to help in every way-from Mama E
Jul 15, 2013
Lush
So funny story.
I giggled at that person and didn't think much of it at the time. Today, I looked up what that would entail. Ha, was that a compliment or an insult? "even if someone teases you, there's probably some truth in it, and it probably means you're overdoing the alcohol."-----Really? All things considered, really?
Last month, I was told that I could be a "Lush."
I giggled at that person and didn't think much of it at the time. Today, I looked up what that would entail. Ha, was that a compliment or an insult? "even if someone teases you, there's probably some truth in it, and it probably means you're overdoing the alcohol."-----Really? All things considered, really?
Jul 12, 2013
Jul 7, 2013
Late Night or Early Morning?
I am awake very late.
My thoughts hit me in the face like a rock and it kind of hurt.
One moment we were having a perfectly fine conversation. Then, tears were running down my cheeks and Dave looked quite confused. Especially since the tears continued at least two more times *slaps forehead.*
For what reason? Please, tell me. I'd love to know.
A visit to the Grandma Pace residence was mentioned. We had a party that encompassed every holiday of the year today. Kim is going home this week. It's our anniversary this week. I was going to up and take off for New York this week (yes, I planned on staying in a different state for a while even if I didn't have a reason or a job there.) We want to buy a puppy. I watched Christmas episodes of shows and cried in all of them. Are these sad events? No. Is this normal? I sure hope not! Am I glad that I have the excuse of being a woman to blame random outbursts of leaking eyes? Yes.
My thoughts hit me in the face like a rock and it kind of hurt.
One moment we were having a perfectly fine conversation. Then, tears were running down my cheeks and Dave looked quite confused. Especially since the tears continued at least two more times *slaps forehead.*
For what reason? Please, tell me. I'd love to know.
A visit to the Grandma Pace residence was mentioned. We had a party that encompassed every holiday of the year today. Kim is going home this week. It's our anniversary this week. I was going to up and take off for New York this week (yes, I planned on staying in a different state for a while even if I didn't have a reason or a job there.) We want to buy a puppy. I watched Christmas episodes of shows and cried in all of them. Are these sad events? No. Is this normal? I sure hope not! Am I glad that I have the excuse of being a woman to blame random outbursts of leaking eyes? Yes.
I thought I'd just write this to let Dave know when he reads the blog, I DON'T KNOW WHAT WAS WRONG. Really.
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