The Middle of The Night

When 6pm arrived, I would dread the hours to come. I felt the stinging in my eyebrows, bringing fear and anger at the process of getting no sleep night after night. But there comes a time,when they baby and you have a schedule in sync with one another and the anxiety stops. You learn to accept the inevitable of the darkness. I have taken a step beyond acceptance.

I know the world is sleeping. I have grown fond of the calm. I become acquainted with myself. I make plans, not the kind of plans I used to make of excitement and drama but better plans. I whisper my inner desires to myself. I relish in the quiet. I relive the regrets of the day and ponder the small victories. The night and I know each other well now. Knowing that a minute won't make a much of a difference, I look as serenity lays on the expression of the two I love as they slumber. I am welcomed into the night's arms and when I return to bed I sink deeply in.

The night and I know each other well.

Small update

I'm working on a 2014 Review but it's long and slightly depressing so I may not post it.

Penny turned 3 months on Christmas day.
-she makes an italian fist with her hand and shakes it at me like this
-Her favorite word to say is "glue" I pretend that she is saying "I love you" because it sounds kind of similar
-She had her first sickness. It was sad to witness. She officially has an ear infection and we are working on recovering. She was doing great with her bedtime routine before she got it so let's hope she keeps that up.
-I filmed 5 seconds every hour of her Christmas day and I'll put that video together....sometime.
-Penny was our New Years Kiss!

I believe in family.